School was actually not bad.

It really wasn't. I'm just as surprised as you. First was bio, and I have a few friends in that class, plus the teacher seems nice. Then gym, which is, you know, gym. I have a couple friends in that class too, so that makes it slightly better, so it's not like gym last year. Last year my gym class was, like, divided into groups, and I wasn't especially friends with anyone so it was awkward. Towards the end of the year I started hanging out with Sam a lot in gym though, but still, the year generally sucked. Then global, which seems like a good class! I mean, the teacher seems nice, there are a lot of cool people in it, so yeah. Then Spanish, which I hate! It's my only non-honors class, so I don't really know many people in it, except for Allison and the people in my spanish class last year. But a lot of the kids in the class are annoying and/or kind of bitchy - not to me in particular, just in general. Like, making fun of the teacher cause she had a foreign accent, etc. I can't really imagine stuff like that happening in an honors class. Hopefully I'll do good enough that I can switch out... And then math, which is, you know, math. Practically a foreign language to me, even on the first day, yet I'm in accelerated. At least Allie's in my class. 

Then lunch. I was kind of wondering who I'd sit with, but I ended up sitting with Ali and Danica, at, like, this big sort of communal table with a bunch of other people, haha. And then... dun dun DUN... English. Actually did not seem horrible. We have till the 14th to complete our summer work (:D) and right now we're reading Speak, which I read several times before and liked a lot. And last is drawing & painting, which is a good time for it. It was okay, I was kind of sucking at drawing, but whatever. It's in this really big, cool art room with high ceilings and windows and a ton of art supplies around, not a flourescently lit box like last year's classroom. So my classes, in general were good, as was my day. Everything happened without a hitch. I really didn't want to go back, though, but now that I'm in school I enjoy it... for now. In a few months I'll be way too tired of the monotony and constant work. Ugh.

ANYWAY. And then there was tennis. It was an away game, and since I wasn't playing, I didn't HAVE to go, but you apparently should because you might be able to play an exhibition. Which I ended up doing. I was playing doubles with Sam against these girls who looked really young, they might have even been in the seventh grade. o_o And yet they beat us. I think I kind of sucked, but yeah. I didn't get home till 6:30, and now I'm doing my homework. I have a LOT, actually, but at least I have study hall tomorrow. The only problem is that I'm writing an essay ABOUT MYSELF. For English. How do you start an essay like that, anyway? Any ideas on what I can do?

Two days...

Less than three days till school. Damn. I still have a quite large chunk of the Scarlet Letter work to do. It's kind of a crap book, to be honest. But at least it will be OVER soon. I think that's the only reason I'm hesitant to go back to school, really. I'm not exactly excited, but not dreading it either. Not much has happened. I started tennis practice. We need to practice every day for two hours until school, and then when school starts and hour every day, which will be odd. I'm used to just going home after school and doing nothing. And we had a car was today to raise money for uniforms, which was really tiring! It was four hours, but we made a lot of money, and it wasn't horrible...

I also went to the Jersey Shore for a couple days, which was okay. We stayed at a cool old bed and breakfast, which had very very thin walls and I was hungry half the time cause I didn't know what I could eat or not in the kitchen. But we had a lot of seafood, I LOVE seafood. I didn't used to, but actually after that vacation I've been craving it. I really like tuna rolls now, those creeped me out before, big time. Raw fish, eek! But now I wish I could eat them for every meal of the day. :P And the actual water had fish eggs in it, ew, so I didn't really go in much. Me and my sister spent a lot of time riding our bikes to town (first time we did, though, we were riding around for almost an hour...) and just getting pizza or ice cream, then hanging out in our room. 

And I got my schedule a few days ago. It's not horrible, but definitely could have been better. I have gym second period for instance, which is better than first, but... not by much. I don't have that many classes with my friends either, but I think I'll manage. So now all I have to do is the stupid work for English. Gah, I'm kind of writing this to procrastinate... Also, I got bangs. I've been wanting them for a really long time, and I was deathly afraid that they'd mess up cutting them, but them came out surprisingly decent. As decent as they could look on me, anyway. I think they make me look a little young/oddly hipster-ish, depending on what I'm wearing. And it seems damn near impossible to take a decent picture with them. Also, I kind of hate my hair color. It's just really boring, I think it would look better just a little darker, but my mom won't let me dye it. I do kind of wonder what would happen if I just dyed it. I mean, what could she do? Other than ground me of course, but I mean, she does it, and what exactly is so bad about it? Aw, crap. I am really just wasting time here, guys. I NEED TO DO THE SCARLET LETTER. Right.

Also, kind of random, but this guy I know (and I use that term loosely) started a website, http://fuckyoscene.tumblr.com, and it is actually really good :). So I just thought I would share it, because I really do like it, haha. 

Aaaand, I'm editing this a lot. I should probably leave it alone for posterity's sake, but eh, I am really bad at procrastination. Or, really GOOD at procrastination, I mean, really bad at doing what I have to. :P

This summer = a waste!

So here was my list of what I wanted to do by the end of the summer, written at the beginning of the summer:

-Finish The Scarlet Letter and be about halfway done with the work by July

-Practice tennis until I'm decent enough for the team

-Be able to run/jog 2+ miles

-Save up enough money for a camera

-Learn guitar (or start to, at least)

Here's what I got done by now:

-Watched Harry Potter 6! :D

- . . . 

AGH! Do you see why this is a problem??? All these magazines are touting "Back to School" fashion and makeup, there are back to school sales, etc. Dude! I haven't even put away most of my school stuff. Stresssssss. Hopefully I'll finish The Scarlet Letter by July, but it's not easy... I mean, it's okay, but... YAWN.

So yeah, I will probably get on that.

Man, I don't blog anymore. Last summer, I did it everyday. I think I already mentioned that, but whatever. I think my life was even more boring then, though.

C'est La Vie

Did I get the title right? I don't take French. Anyway, this is sent from my iPod, I couldn't get to sleep and wrote a note that was like some weird stream-of-consciousness thing. Might as well go for honesty, right? I haven't posted in a while. For those who care. Anyway:

Fuck. FUCK. Fuuuuuuck. I can't be liking him again, can I? Like it hasn't caused enough problems. When he started going out with [Name censored! Ahhh, censorship!!!], it took me a while to get over him, and I WANTED to be over him, but eventually I did. When I learned he was single again, I tried to be excited, but wasn't super happy like I expected. But now, again, I can't seem to stop thinking about him. I don't want to like someone who most definitely does not like me back, but somehow I can't NOT...? The heart wants what the heart wants. (Haha. I think I saw that on a shirt or something. Weird incoherent ramblings.) I want a fresh start with Taylor, but maybe a REAL fresh start would be just forgetting about him. Ugh. It's even worse cause I won't even see him till September. And then when I do it will probably be a letdown, again. I can't stop liking him, or anybody, on demand. It's like I need to like someone in order to just...occupy my time? Have a common goal? I don't know, but not liking someone just kind of sucks more. At least for me. I've always been like this, and I don't want to be. But that's my screwed up mind for you. 

So here I am writing this, 12:30 am, cause I can't get to sleep. And then I'll wake up ridiculously late tomorrow, at 12:30 pm like I did today. Vicious cycle. It's not like I'd be doing anything anyway. This summer has really sucked so far. First it was the crappy weather for a month straight, and now people are just - gone? Busy? Avoiding me? (paranoia much?) But for whatever reason, no one can hang out. Screw them. I just want to loiter around town and swim at my friend's pool like last summer. I don't know. I'm worried about school the upcoming year. Eek. Not that I have something in particular to be worried about. Just in general, I guess. I'm not worried about any classes except English. It sounds 100x harder than this year, which was already pretty bad. I'm concerned about just getting totally lost. I could switch out of advanced, but I just can't. My parents would hate it, so much. I would hate it. I just prefer being challenged to being super bored, like I am in my non-honors class. Plus, some of the people in non-advanced just don't care. I'm used to being with people who care, a lot. But then the other side of the spectrum is not that great. In advanced classes, the people are just kind of judgmental and super competitive. Not fun. I guess I just want to be in honors because it would be like I wasn't pushing myself enough otherwise. Because, to be totally honest, I didn't try this year at all. I didn't do anything after school either, no activities of whatever. Gotta get on that. For college, ya know. Not that I have any clue about college, or my future at all, for that matter. Yikes. Okay, that's not even what my main worry is. It's just, I expected a lot from high school, and this past year has been pretty...mediocre, to say the least. I just want the upcoming year to be much better. I'm also worried about the average crap, like not having friends in my classes and whatnot. Which I guess I'd the thinking of most people. But I've been worrying about sophomore year since about the middle of freshman year, which can't be normal. 

Um, let's focus on the good now, yeah? I got by report card back yesterday. I can't complain. Nothing lower than mid 80s, and I actually didn't fail my English final. It was a nightmare. Does anyone know if it was a thing for all of New York state? Cause if it was, OMFG WASN'T IT HORRIBLE, fellow New Yorkers?! Also, I started a kind of fashion collaboration channel with my sister. Um, her idea, okay? I did it mainly to humor her, but it's pretty fun I guess. It's youtube.com/aweekofstyle. Apparently she totally copied another channel's idea though, haha. So, it's 1 am, and I'm actually tired, what do ya know? Time for sleep. (Which, by the way, is always filled with dreams about school. WTF? Ugh.) 

I got a new youtube channel, youtube.com/sondrablog. So, check that out too, I guess. It's mainly fashion-ish, but mainly I wanted a youtube AWAY from people I know *cough*Kyle!*cough* I'm on a video spree today, haha. I just went around town with Eva (my sister), and  blew wayyy too much money on makeup at CVS. Agh, I'm like addicted to makeup. I could spend $100 bucks there, easy, and that doesn't even begin to cover the money I could waste at Sephora or Mac. I had about $50 worth of stuff, but had to put it back. Then we walked all the way to the 2 Alices, this awesome coffee place in my town. I love it. The people who work there are really nice, there's a lot of cool art up, and wi-fi, of course. The coffee's good, but I wasted 5 bucks on a ridiculously expensive (but delicious) iced latte. Then I got like 4 CDs from the library and got two books - It's Kind of a Funny Story by Ned Vizzini, even though I already read it, and Breakfast of Champions by Kurt Vonnegut. I heard it was good. I still have to read The Scarlet Letter though. Actually it's not that bad so far. I think I'm going to make another video now, hahaha. ;)

Not a Freshman!

So, today was my last day of school! I'm not exactly sad, but it's like, shit, 3 more years... yikes. And Philip is moving away soon too, but I'm serious, in 10 years he will be a famous ballet dancer, no joke! :D We still have finals until Wednesday, so it doesn't feel like it's OFFICIALLY summer yet. That and the crappy weather we've been having for basically two months... 

But today was fun. We had 15 minute periods (pointless much?) and then had my Spanish final, which wasn't horrible. We attempted to bring various people who had lunch sixth period into our art class, but, uh, that didn't go too well. Knowing my teacher, not surp

rising. After school, I walked around pointlessly for a while. (Unfortunately, a prime example of how I spend my summer - I LIVE IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE.) Then I fell asleep for three hours and woke up only being forced to go see Angels and Demons with my sister and her friend. If this is an indicator of how the rest of my summer will be, could I just skip to the school year...? :P

On second thought though, sophomore year doesn't seem exactly peachy either. English Advanced seems nightmarish in itself. The teacher came in the other day and basically tried to scare us, like the teachers always do - and it worked. We have to read the Scarlet Letter and do a ton of essays on it. From what I've read, not exactly a light summer  read... Speaking of books, I used to read a LOT, but now I hardly do. I've been borrowing my sister's Gossip Girl book for the last month, and have hardly read it at all. (It's good though, if you like a lot of catty drama - which I most certainly do.) I want better books. Any suggestions? I'll be honest though, the adult fiction section of my library intimidates me. That's the main reason I just linger in the one rack of Young Adult books. I began to dislike the library after volunteering there last year for my confirmation though- they had me cleaning off tons of kids books. Is that even necessary? They honestly had nothing for me to do, so just made up stupid stuff, it seems, so now just entering the children's section brings back bad memories. 

On a much better note, I just saved about a dozen pictures of Andrew VanWyngarden to my computer. Ahh! Ever since I saw the "Time to Pretend" video way last year I've been obsessed with him. It might be entering stalker territory.... :P

                                                                                                                                                                          

 

Facebook is suckish.

Ugh. An online disaster has occurred - my mom sent me a friend request on Facebook. Not that I have anything to hide, it just that... does my mom really need to see all my status updates (in particular, ones along the lines of "procrastinating my homework") and random wall posts? I'm thinking I could just do that thing where you don't accept or deny their friend request - like a friend request limbo. Or maybe somehow edit my privacy settings? I don't know. 

I'm thinking of deleting it anyway.  It kind of sucks lately. I get a TON of notifications, and it gets my hopes up (people "like"-ing my status gives me a warm fuzzy feeling ;p) but then it's just some stupid notification about a stupid app that I added and tried to forget about. I hate the new layout - well, it's not so new anymore. And I get all these random people I never met before trying to talk to me, which is really odd. Like, this kid who lives in Chile and only speaks Spanish, and some old dude. Creepy. And then of course there's Kyle, and my lovely neighbor Alex. Ugh, Alex. I haven't talked to him in person in two years, and he apparently, despite his "in a relationship" status, thinks I'm "sexy" and feels a need to tell me and/or my siblings this on a regular basis. And he's 12... Plus, he's going to court for throwing a hubcap off a bridge above the highway on my road. So yeah. I basically am afraid to ever go on Facebook, cause I know the second I log in, one of them will be waiting for me. Well, that sounds paranoid, and it's not like I have anything against either of them. I just don't really have anything to talk to them about, and THEY don't either, so it's just a dead end conversation. Awk. 

But I DO love Facebook. I don't think I could ever leave it... I think it honestly is an addiction, of sorts. I've had one since last year, when basically no one had it, so I was really bored, and now that's basically the only way I talk to people online. I can't even stand AIM anymore. And Myspace? It's a virtual black hole. I hate people's obnoxious backgrounds with being forced to listen to their crappy music, and the way I couldn't find ANYONE. I just gave up, but my sister and her friends (and Alex) decided to friend me, plus a few people from my old school who I don't particularly want to . I'd never even go on if I didn't get email updates. It's good for music, but now my flash player is effed or something, so it's basically... a crappy wasteland of... crappiness. I don't know. Facebook pwns Myspace so hard.

So today, I went to this Italian Feast thingie at my old school. It's pretty lame, not gonna lie. I was supposed to go on Friday with my friend, but it was raining, then I was going to go on Saturday with her but it wasn't open, and I finally went with her today. I haven't talked to her in a while, so it was fun, even though there was nothing to do. However, I severely overestimated how many tickets I needed, so my choices were either to use them all on food (good, but I'd probably be about 500 pounds - damn, Italian food is tasty), on the lame school-sponsored games designed for five year olds (good, if I had the mentality, "the more dollar store toys, the merrier") or just to keep them. I kept them, and now I have a good $10 worth of tickets sitting around until next year. They had a band there, and they were... mediocre. I mean, they were good on their own, but together, not so much. One of them was pretty hot though. I think I just have a thing for musicians... ;)

Things I don't get: Style Edition

I haven't posted in a while, if anyone cares. ;p So yes, the list of things I don't "get" is rather, lengthy, let's face it. So here's a list of things that will boggle me to no end (visual aids for the description-impaired):

Vests

Yes, I love a good vest. Like, o

ne that can be worn indoors, for style purposes only. But those heavy-duty outdoors ones? What's the point? Maybe it's just me. Bu

t I've never had the problem of a freezing torso and overheated arms. I've pondered this issue since I got my first vest at age six - it was this hot pink fleece dealie, which I wore with this denim miniskirt that had mirrors and beads and whatnot all over it.

 I thought I was SO COOL. Haha! Anyway, even then, I could never actually wear it. This one goes in the same category as white crayons, I think. (I mean, seriously, white crayons? WTF?)

On that note, we have Uggs with Shorts. Or miniskirts, etc. And I'm talking about bare legs, in the summer. Yes, I've seen it, more times than I care to mention. Well I'm not a big Uggs fan to begin with, so maybe I'm biased. But it goes in the same weather-inappropriate category as the afor

ementioned vests. Has anyone ever had ve

ry cold feet coincide with warm legs? Plus I would imagine that they'd get all sweaty inside during the summer. (I've tried on Uggs - can't deny their comfiness, but it kind of made me wonder if all the sweat just stews in there all day. Ick.) Look at the picture. Just say no. 

My dislike of wide-legged pants, I'll admit, is just a purely personal preference. Apparently they've 

been really stylish lately. Apparently (though I have not seen evidence) they're really flattering. I've tried them on, I've seen it with my own two eyes - they look freaking WEIRD on me. Sure, on Kate Moss-types they looked okay, but why would someone want pants that makes their legs looks wider? Hey, maybe even on someone older they'd look okay. I've just never seen them work on anyone MY age. Ever. I just... don't like them, okay? Don't press me about these things. 

Hope no one's mad at me, bee tee dubs - just my opinion. I'm certainly a far cry from a fashion expert. ;)

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Seriously, though - there's something like 12 school days left for me. Crazy! The year went by so quickly, and was relatively painless. I've heard sophomore year is way better, though - even though I've also heard that the AP English teacher is like 10x worse than my current one, work-wise. I honestly didn't know that was possible, after the brutal resaearch report we had to hand in for English. I'm just glad it's over! ... Only to give way to finals. -__-

Oh, and just for the lulz: 

From what I can remember, fashion from the late 90s - early 2000s was notably hideous, wasn't it? I mean, yeah, I can't really remember it. But I recently discovered this old Disney Adventures magazine from 2001 or so. That exact picture was in it, being touted as actually fashionable. Oh jeez. (That is all denim, if you can't tell from the picture.) All I can really remember from that time were gaudy crop tops and flare jeans, plus bizarre platform shoes and some kinda weird blue eyeshadow + fuschia lipstick combo. Then again, are we really on track with our "fashion" now? Half of what I see at school totally ridiculous and tacky. I've definitley been liking the whole grunge revival thingie though. Opinions? :)